I know there's not much that I can say/do to make you feel better now. Just know that it's okay to be weak at times like this... this is what family and friends are for. To have lived a full life with loving family and friends is already good enough. Not everyone need to have big "goals" or "meaning" in life. I'm sure your granny had a good life having a loving granddaughter like you.Please take care.
Agree with your words Ella, I wish my grandmother is being happy now too.. :').Thanks :)